Off the Grid

I am officially done with my second year of school. My summer vacation has begun!

Starting tonight, I am going off the grid. I will leave my phone, computer, and every means of contact behind. I will set up a tent in some location and I will be living in it for a week or two. I haven't decided where or for how long. I plan on secluding myself from society simply because I am overloaded. I wasn't home for an hour before I was told I had to e-mail this person and call that person. I am done with the real world for the moment and I want nothing to do with it. I am tired of constantly checking my e-mail to see if something new arrived or checking my phone to make sure I didn't miss anything. That is no way to live. I need to feel connected to the world and there is no better way than to live in it. I want to get away from it all.

I have been contemplating the world lately. I feel we have all lost touch with ourselves and our friends. We are more focused as a society on materialistic needs and wants and less focused on what really matters. Everyone is caught up in themselves and they forget about others. I believe we need a change. I think we all need to get back to our beliefs. Everyone has become impersonal. The age of technology has kept us all connected but has also taken away our personal attachments. We no longer feel the need to see people or to be friendly. Why go out when you can just call and have it delivered. Customer service is even computerized. I know this is all a little strange and unexpected, but for my own well-being it needs to be done. I am going to a place where time stands still and where old-fashioned letters where the only communication. Back to a time where crime and drama were limited. A time before I was born, when you had to walk next door to see your neighbor and borrow sugar. "The good 'ol days" that your grandparents always talk about. That is where you will find me.

If for some reason you need to contact me, you can send e-mails or texts. Unfortunately I will not receive them until I am back. My home phone will still work, but I may not get the messages. So, I guess all I am saying is...there is no way to get to me unless you show up in person.

The End is Near!

Tomorrow is my last day of class for the year! I then will only have 4 exams until I am home for the summer...

The hours are going by so slow, but the days just fly. I have started to realize that the end of my second year is coming to a close. I am officially done with half of my college life. This scares me. I am going to spend the summer finding a job and researching graduate schools. I will take the GREs and apply to a program in the fall. All of this is on my mind as I am rounding the home stretch!

I am finding it hard to focus on my exams with the knowledge that this summer is the last summer before I will be in the real world. It seems so far away, but it's not. I am going to have to face the fact that come this time next year I will move away and start my own life.

Yes, I will have two more years of school, but I will be out of Virginia and mainly on my own. No summer vacations, no holidays, just work.

The truth is that as scared as I am...I am also so excited! I can't explain my emotions to anybody, but I can't wait for the WORLD!

The semester needs to end...NOW

This semester has ultimately been flawless...until now. I find myself not knowing what time or even what day it is. This is probably not good. I wake up in the mornings and have to actually look at a calendar to see where I am suppose to go. I believe this is a true sign of exhaustion.

This morning for example, I woke up at 7:45 due to my alarm. I turned it off and sat there wondering why I was waking up so early on a Thursday (usually 9 on tues/thurs). I really was puzzled and even set my alarm for 9. Just as I was about to lay back down I realized it was really Wednesday! How horrible is that?

I think I need a break. A long break. Unfortunately, these last few weeks of school are going to be the toughest and the ones where I really need to know what's going on.

Wish me all the luck you can! I am seriously going to need it!